my ex best friend continues to post about me on social media and i can’t stand it. she was terrible to me. cursed at me. and wasn’t at all accepting of me. she’s a firm christian, but has bent her beliefs for many things.
one of these things she wouldn’t bend on was my hypothetical lesbian wedding.
the reason this mattered greatly to me was because i was toying with the idea of liking girls romantically. I had no idea how I would end up telling this girl who means so much to me as my best friend that I could possibly date a girl. I was afraid that she would not be accepting at all and end up stopping being my friend. which I guess ended up happening anyway.
either way, she was very cruel and keeps posting that she misses me and check my social media and cries and i just cannot stand it. it makes me so angry.
it’s hard to believe that the person closest to you wouldn’t do everything they can to make you feel secure.
I know I’m better off without her but i just miss having someone close. someone to gush to about my boyfriend and to gossip about dumb stuff that doesn’t matter and to call when I’m bored or need advice and to hang out with and just have a good time.
on another hand I’m afraid to get that close to someone again. what if the next person doesn’t accept me too.
it seems like more and more posts keep adding up just about how goddamn scared I am.